Thoughts away from home.

It's almost one and half month since I've landed in Birmingham. 

Honestly, it feels like I've been here for quite awhile. Or maybe I've settled in really well.

Good classmates, best friends, lovely roomie and apartment mates - life is good so far. 

Of course, not all days are well and fine.

There are days of ups and downs - arguments, unhappiness, misunderstandings.

Some days were unbearable. What it feels like to be mistaken by your friend as someone who bitches about the others.

Damn.

Sometimes, you wish you could disappear.
Without people and crowd, just you and a piece of meadow land ahead of you.
You close your eyes, take a deep breath and open your eyes.
How life can be peaceful.

Were there times that you felt like you've been putting in too much effort?
That no one seems to care and takes it for granted.
Your suffering was invisible to the others.
Yet theirs were so visible, that they could ask someone for help but you can't.
All you could do, was to keep it in your heart.
Go to a corner of your room and look up into the starry night sky.
Pondering about the worries you have.

Sometimes, life is painful.
but sunshine would come by.
Cliche as it may sound, but a rainbow comes by after every rainfall.
Be strong and stay strong.
Be who you are.
You are worth it, you are worth all the love you can ever get.
What the others think might matter in the society.
But in your own world, your happiness matters the most.

To someone I deeply love,
I love you for who you are.
No matter what kind of a person you are, what arguments we ever had.
I hate the sins, but never you.
Cheer up,
& this is dedicated for you.
:)

love,
cynnie.